Sunday, February 27, 2011

Someone to confide in

"I wish I had someone to talk to
Someone I could confide in"

These are the lyrics of a song that I once liked and listened to a lot, and while its been years since I last heard it but these words keep coming to my mind these days now that I find myself really lonely and no one with whom I can share my feelings or what's going on in my mind with.

As before starting this post I googled 'I wish I had someone to talk to' to find these lyrics and make sure I am writing this right, I was surprised to find who websites and blogs on this very purpose, on people like me...
Well it might be great for some people having such sites but I always feel uncomfortable with such sites as I believe that there are different cultures and mind sets everywhere and not everyone can understand what you are going through so I thought to keep it to my blog.

I am just sick of with the old selfish people for a long time and want to meet some new people and nice friends.. or even just a friend...
I know a lot of people for whom I am one of the very few people with whom they have shared their feelings and problems and lives with but for some reason I don't feel comfortable sharing with any of them. I believe its not all my fault since many of them behaved very selfishly before and left me or ignored me when their lives seemed to be on the right track and for others so somehow got me as the last resort. While I don't mean to degrade them or insult their feelings, and its always nice to have someone sharing something personal with you but their comes a time when you can't trust someone anymore... and that's whats with me for many people around me.

I don't know what to do about this feeling and where to get any good friend whom I can truly trust...

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Want to write? Then Write!


I have always yearned to write yet I never did, at first I thought I didn't do so because I was not good at it yet I comprehended later that it was a misconception. Once I read somewhere that if you want to write, all you need to do it is write. That gave me some hope to write still I was unable to do so and I realized that the reason behind it was that I was afraid of people knowing who I really am, what I think & what I do. I am not sure if it happens among many people or not but I am certain of it being bogus.

Why should someone be afraid of who he is? Don't we often see people that we think are total jerks? Don't we read blogs and stuff that we completely find stupid and the person to be crazy? Yet they continue to write, at least they are doing good to themselves... they let it all out. I wonder if they ever have similar thoughts cross their mind. What exactly is on the minds of people who write? Do they just enjoying writing while they are at it or have a continuous thoughts of people's opinion about it like I am having right now. I really hope it will go away with time, let's see.

Why should I (or someone for that matter) be uncomfortable of who he really is and hide it and put up something for people to like him? Is such liking even worth it in which you lose your own identity (yea you actually do lose your identity acting like something you are not)? And why do we get this false perception in mind in the first place that people won't like me being me? Well I have lived enough life in facade, let's get it over with. Someone likes it or not, WHO CARES!